hi,
I've become a member of the training studio and have been training properly for almost 2 weeks. i was training on and off for about a month with the free 7 days to better brain fitness. then i took a break for about 3 weeks as i went overseas and all that.
and now, for the past 2 weeks i've started afresh and have been training seriously and properly.
I do Singular mental concentration builder, Thought shut out and zone-zone each for 15 minutes continuously making it a 45 minute session. i do this whenever i have a 45 min slot. it's difficult, but i find time. these 3 happen every day.
Then, i do the basic breathing for about 30 minutes whenever i can, usually during lunch break. doesn't happen everyday.
Then when i have time, i throw in Object retention and body stillness but this is very rare.
I got better and better and felt good and gaining control in the beginning of the training but recently for the past 2 days, i face extreme tiredness, i don't know why!
it's like i've lost all control!. it was going up and up and now it seems like it's all just gone! i cannot reach the state of concentration anymore… i used to look forward to training, now, i find it a struggle!
What happens is that i DON'T feel like sleeping but i feel messed up. i feel drowsy. like stuck in between awake and asleep. i make up my mind and force concentration, but soon without me realizing, i get drowsy and caught up in thought and i jerk into consciousness to find i've lost concentration and attention and i'm so drowsy. I'm so drowsy that i cannot tell the difference between attention and not paying attention. Maybe this is how it feels like to be on drugs. i think that i'm paying attention, but i'm actually not but i CANNOT realise it!
I do the training at the exact same place, exact same time and everything… but all of a sudden, yesterday and today, especially today was really terrible. i tried it thrice! once in the morning, afternoon and evening, ALL RESULT IN THE SAME FEELING!
i feel very bad and disappointed and really want to exert my will and get back on track which is why i tried thrice but it just got worse. i don't feel like i've trained at all!